When I started this project , I promised myself I was going to tell my story. I told myself to be real, and raw. It may upset people , but it is not about them. It is not for them. By publicizing my story, perhaps other people will do the same. We should not feel ashamed of our pasts. There is a divine plan you see. Through all our turmoil, there are lessons and opportunity for soul growth. It happens on a subconscious level. Suddenly, we can fast-forward ten years and see how we grew as a person. Maybe you were once homeless, and now you give all you can to the beggar on the street. If you were mistreated as a child by your parents , you now give your own children all that love you wished you had. You see, we grow. Of course, sometimes people cannot get past their pain. Sadly, these people may inflict pain on to others. They may turn to a life of drugs and alcohol to cope. These people are not failures. They simply are not ready to heal. If not in this lifetime, then , perhaps, they will in the next.
Point being, I write to share from my perspective and to help anyone who feels alone, and empty as I once did. I am not writing to have people pity me. Not at all! I learned so much from my colorful life. As hard as some of it was, I also had many beautiful memories and met amazing people. It was not all bad. I am simply sharing in depth the part that caused pain because that is where I learned the most. That is what led me to dance with the devil, and to shut out God. However, those were chapters, not the entire story!
If you are following, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I have to tell the story in order to show how I put things into perspective. Each one of us has a story full of excitement, tragedy, love, guilt, and adventure! We can never judge another human being because we do not know their circumstances. How can I judge someone based only on what I know NOW? I can’t because I do not know their soul. I do not know what they have been through , or their healing process.
No matter how lost, hopeless, and afraid you may be at this very moment. Please know that you are not alone. I know that is a cliche, but it’s the truth. Someday, you will look back on your own story and see that whatever it is you are going through was not put in your path to destroy you. It was put there to define you. Much Love and Light ❤ Nicole
” This is my life…my story…my book. I will no longer let anyone else write it; nor will I apologize for the edits I make”